Well that’s not up to me to decide, right? It might be stupid to jeopardize/risk an amazing future for something that the institution doesn’t care much about, but I’m tired of this helpless cycle. And I don’t want to disrupt the institution when it’s not helping anyone and just disrupt my life and those around me.

I’m not quite sure what you’re saying is not up to you to decide. There are things in our control, and things not in our control, that’s true. Are you familiar with Reinhold Niebuhr’s serenity prayer? Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.