The more I try to ask for help, the more I seem to be heading toward a path of suffering – like it makes me feel scared and it also disrupt people around me. Can you tell me why? I honestly believe that “the wounded healer can truly heal,” and I always believe in people’s ability to heal. But what if this world is just too complicated and too difficult to navigate, what if some people die in the process of healing?
It is really scary to ask for help, and people don’t always respond the way you hope they will. If that’s the kind of disruption that’s happening, that’s normal. Ask someone else next time–I promise, it gets easier. The last part of what you’ve said worries me a little. The world IS complicated and difficult to navigate sometimes (especially now), but if it’s feeling like too much and you’re worried you won’t make it, that is an excellent time to reach out for professional help. Get in touch with University Counseling Services and they might be able to help you figure things out. http://bit.ly/BC-counseling. Miracles are sometimes direct, sometimes not. It seems pretty miraculous to me that with all that’s wrong with the world right now, the birds are still returning, and the trees and flowers are blooming. I hope you feel better soon.