Before Hamilton I thought freedom was something they can never take away, after it I though it was something I will never see again, no matter what they tell me. But everything is all weird the past two weeks. I haven’t watched Hamilton, not even once. I am actually surprised that it’s been only two weeks, I feel it like 6 months. Songs from Hamilton do swirl in my mind ever day, but I don’t have that urge to watch/listen to it. In the recent days I’ve been full of doubts whether I should watch it, just one last time. But then I say to myself: “No! You don’t want this. You don’t need this. Think of all the opportunities that lie ahead! Do you really want to ruin your whole life and live under a couch listening to the musical 24/7 for the rest of your life?! NO! You are strong, you are independent! Don’t let this musical control your life, break free!” That’s what usually snaps me out of it. I’ll be doing everything I can to not watch it for one last time, because I know it won’t be the last time, it will just make my whole life go in cycles of Hamilton, Freedom, Hamilton, Freedom, etc. I have be strong, I don’t have another choice. (After rereading this, I can see plenty of Hamilton quotes that aren’t intentional (not counting the first couple sentences). Is it a coincidence or did Hamilton permanently change the way I write/express myself?)
Do you really need me to tell you how to say no to this? You’re not helpless. You can’t watch/ listen to/ quote Hamilton nonstop. But it’s ok to want to watch it again sometime, maybe a couple times a year – that would be enough. I’m sure you’ll be back.