As long as I can remember, I’ve had trouble shutting off my mind to get to sleep. One night, for some reason, I tried to die by willing my heart to stop. I didn’t die. But I went right to sleep. Since then, I’ve been doing the same thing to get to sleep almost every night. I’ve never slept better. I promise I’m NOT suicidal. I’m happy and productive during my waking hours. But I worry. Am I harming my psyche, could I actually induce depression or real suicidality by doing this?
Yikes – as you say, sounds ominous. I’m very glad you’re not suicidal, but since you are worried about harming your psyche (and I am, too), why not contact University Counseling Services (bit.ly/BC-counseling) and run it by them. Discuss your sleep problems, too. They may have some good suggestions for you.